This is not the end. Not like this.
The point is how to work with not so strong a will power right now, and feeling so distant from self, how to work with intelligence that has been hurt, how to work with the heart that has been in pain.
If it must be known to you, then know this that nobody left you, always waiting for you. All the time thinking of you, thinking of this situation, and the Universe, and Her design and manifestations.
Progress, to use that word, is slow, but there. However, unsure of whether it is going to ever match and come at your level. Remember: nobody ever left you, your side, or the desire of being together with you, an bringing this into happiness that this is.